Lessons in Motherhood #1

This is not happening on my schedule.

I am not in charge.

All I can do is wait.  

And accept what is.

I have to admit- Pony is  much closer to God (loosely defined) at this point and so far, the two of them have done a pretty amazing job of organizing things, i.e. bringing Timmy and I together so why the hell should I start doubting them now?

This is going to be an amazing experience however it goes down.  Even if that means we medically induce on Friday, July 22nd.  I am okay with that.  Especially after a major meltdown this morning.  But that is how it usually works with me,  I have to experience complete defeat before I'll throw in the white towel and give up.  Or at the least, loosen my grip just a little.  

So dear darling daughter,  I'll meet you when you get here, on your own time, and in your own special way.

But goddammit if we aren't super excited to meet you.

xx

mom